Love held on too tight

It’s a feeling like you have overdosed I think

Like you are all maxed out and have learnt to depend solely on one substance

I guess loving you is my heroine

I have suffocated you with it, not wanting to breathe on my own

I’d move sadness from your face once its in my power

Even if it isn’t I’d try anyway

Loving selfishly, as if I am the only one who exist in your world

But its because only you exist in mine

I’d rip the very heart from my chest and hand it to you if needed it

Sometimes I feel like somehow I already gave it to you

Time and distance play an integral role in my source of happiness

simply because if you are too far away and if it will take a long time before I see you then how can I be happy

I have based my hope, possibilities, love, happiness and reasons upon your decisions

so that’s if you decide to stay

or go

or leave

or love me

any at all

I think I’d lose love because I loved too much, too deeply

I’ve suffocated …

Now I should suffocate

or teach myself to live in a world without Love

without you

without air

A gift for Christmas

I’ve been window shopping

Trying to find the perfect gift

A gift that will show just how much I trust you

Show just how much I crave to create a future on your brick walls

A gift that concretes our bond and the promises we made to each other

Santa doesn’t package these kind of gifts

Like the gifts that will call you daddy

I hope the gift is delivered in time for Christmas