I am a doll that gives trouble sometimes
Sometimes I can’t make my mind up, so I end up delaying the menu if we are at dinner
or shopping because I just cannot decide what colour I like best
I burst into tears a lot, happy tears, sad tears, jealous tears and all the while this could stop in a minute
Because I get moody sometimes, i’d be bored to be in a particular mood sometimes
so my friends end up calling me crazy or miserable and maybe you will say I am both
But even though I give headaches sometimes, I can be a doll
I love honestly,
I care deeply
I live passionately
So even though I am a doll that gives heart aches sometimes
Will you still choose me?…over everything else ?
Intense rivalry at the table
Faces are hard to read
Should you raise or should you fold?
Or maybe you should just walk away because he has been holding nothing more in his hand than a joker
Ballads never said it?
Tears didn’t show it?
Smiles didn’t express it?
Laughter wasn’t loud enough?
Well each day will be scheduled with the purpose to prove …
Heaven only knows how much I love you Gerald.
Blowing away the dark clouds
Closing my eyes and reconnecting nature with myself
Seeing possibilities again
Remembering what happiness means to me
Loving me again, completely and sharing with others as I go
Traces of footsteps
All tell the tale of the untold
But now as they are drifting toward the forgotten
They have been proven to be nothing more than “dirty could have beens”.
Move on and make them white again.
Knitting brows, forcing the limit of vocal chords to make angry music
Music of pain, fear, hurt
Sang in the presence of many but really only written for one
Singing angry music to you until you call for time out
It would be your punishment but my heart’s solution
Since I’m really singing angry music just so that I could get some time out with you.
—–Need you here bright eyes…my heart can’t take it
Running in circles in this chaotic world
Wanting to turn off the light switch and vanish in the dark
Turn the volume down and block out the cries of those who might be hurting more than you are
But who are you to belittle how I feel?
Trying to speak to the deaf
Showing signs to the blind
Funny thing is, it is not a maze
It is so simple you are thinking to forget the Queen’s language and say “what the f&%$K is so hard to understand?
Living in a world that feels like death
Love may be too difficult simply because the process is so simple
To put one’s happiness ahead of yours and make a sacrifice with no benefit to yourself is to give in completely
This makes it difficult, because the truth is we will always hold on to a piece of ourselves in a selfish attempt to look out for our own well being
So how then can you say you have truly loved when all along you have kept a small piece of yourself?
Love is too simple, we fail because we overthink and when we overthink we have held back a piece of ourselves and when we hold back, we have failed to love
Wake up little girl! there are no kisses tonight
Go back for those glass slippers! before you know it, you will be walking around here in one foot of shoe
Kiss all the toads in the pond but you know very well no magic exists
Stop staring at the sky and wishing on satellites
There is no “the end” because there was never a “once upon a time’
Foolish girl, close the books and go grow up!
She batters her wings in a cramped cage
Feeling defeated by her guilt
Her thirst for freedom weighs bruises on her mind
But she is torn between the fear of not being happier outside these bars
Little birdy, wishes she would love to stay