Living a life

Life has a sense of humour so learn to laugh with it

Adjust yourself to its games

Adopt to where it decides to take you

And above all…learn to live it along the way


K for kitten

I’ve watched her from across the room

Her voice awakens me

Her existence excites me

Something about wanting to pet her…brush her hair or maybe stroke my fingers across her fur

….to make her mine…my K…my kitten

Not to cage but hold her captive in my arms and tell her that she is safe

Because she is loved…even if she decides to only visit my neighbour’s house


For Kitten

Like…my love

Don’t just love me with words, love me like a lifetime movie because no one really knows that fairytale isn’t real.

Why can’t you love me like…

You can’t breathe if I am not next to I could flirt with another human being but my love for you would make it hard for me to sleep so why waste my time…kinda love

Love me like nothing else makes sense I’d rip my heart out of my chest and give to you if yours stopped beating…like I can’t do airport trips if you are not struggling behind me with your suitcase because you packed too much clothes for a weekend trip…kinda love

Why can’t you love me so much that tears come when you hear a song that has nothing to do with me but because the lyrics are talking about break up you cry at the idea that the song could ever be us one day…kinda love

The kinda love where you see a couple with kids and already imagined my head on that person because you can’t wait for that to be us…kinda love

Matter of fact …why can’t you simply just love me the way that I love you so that I don’t have to write poems about wanting you to love me the way that I love you….kinda love

.. – Crystal

……kinda love

Talk to me

Have you ever tried talking to yourself? Trying to convince yourself that you are OK ? You literally trying to have the audacity to use reverse psychology on your own mind because you know how vulnerable your heart is. How dare you try to stand there and take advantage of your own feelings while your weak, because you know it was any other day…when you were happy and strong… That shyt would not fly!

Stop lying! You are not OK…


– Crystal

Little piece of nothing

Sometimes there is nothing to hold on to but we get so scared that we create fantasies and imagine what we want to see ….

So that…that way we can live in our excuses as to why we are still there …

Hanging on desperately to nothing


– Crystal


You are not AlOnE

If life is a story then mental challenge is a page

Illness knows no mercy nor does it prefer an age

Not even gender too


Trying to bury your emotions in a plate of food

Writing your task list then forgetting what to do

Always telling yourself that you don’t belong

And every waking day it’s the same old song

‘I’m gonna be good today – no you’re not! Today I’m gonna be a….oh darn I forgot!


You don’t wanna be called special because you link that to a disability

Keeping it a secret because you are afraid of the community

Because some idiot, who’s ignorant might call you crazy….

But I say… the world could use a little crazy


Special is not disabled…it’s being unique,

You have a purpose on this land but you’re too negative to see it

Drop self-hate! Unveil self-appreciation

Love yourself and begin to teach your nation

There is so much we can do if we just begin to accept our reality

Stop exiling the victim and begin to help your family

Because the truth is, we are all a little crazy

Some of us just haven’t been diagnosed

Today, for her, but tomorrow, who knows?


Empower! Educate! Accept! Embrace!

The world is everyone’s home

And I don’t care what your diagnosis is I just know you are not alone





In support of World Mental Health Day – October 10, 2017




Your scars are beautiful, they show me strength, courage and POWER

Power over the BUMPS in life and PAIN that a sad day can bring

Let me kiss your beautiful head after you have SHAVED

I watch you shed the weight

You are a NEW WOMAN, re birthed and so you must LIVE for your sisters

And your life will honour those who didn’t survive life’s BUMPS



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Learning Love

There are moments when I look back on our journey and I learn each day to appreciate

every tear,

every sweat,

every broken promise,

every battle

because only then would I be able to love you the way I do

I place God between us and my love around you.

  • Crystal