To love you is to carry you with me everyday, not seeing you but still feeling a connection between us…yearning to be next to you because that is where home is
To love you is to sacrifice my happiness for yours, because when you are happy so am I, either way I am smiling
To love you is to drown myself in tears trying to explain how I feel but I just can’t seem to get the right words out…or make any sense at all
To love you is to close my eyes and allow my heart to wander carelessly in the dark because I have no limits, no boudaries and intentions to stop
To love you is to love you blind…Am I making any sense yet?
Sometimes the mind gets cloudy, images are a blur and memories linger
It’s usually a down time, a moment when the place is dark and the mood calls for thinking outloud
In these moments the past surfaces, fears strengthen and volunerability is heightened
The true test comes when you are attacked while your down because in this moment decisions are unclear, moods swing and thoughts sway
Can you really love in a dark moment?
I say to you…that even when the thoughts sway and volunerability heightens and when wrong seems right in the darkest nights…even then I CHOOSE YOU
It’s the sort of power that clips a bird’s wing and removes the air from their feathers ending their feeling of freedom
The sort of power that washes away memories and pain when your heart is breaking
The sort of power that compels and leaves you vulnerable
The sort of power that determines when you smile and decides just how long you cry
It’s the power of love
And sometimes the most dangerous thing is when the person with this power has no clue that they have it…
Go on and cry now…
It’s because I love me enough for the both of us why nothing you do can break my joy.
I want to fight until the end
Break the rules and change the order
Take the risks and let them see differently.
The fight is frustrating-
Makes you want to find a dark hole and bury your challenges,
Run-as far as you can dream.
Sometimes…is just that-
It never last forever, let it last for some time and then keep moving.
It’s a familiar feeling what you do to me,
I have felt this before-
The lump in my throat, tears gathering behind my eyes
while I lie to the world and fake my smiles.
It’s almost a routine to me now.
After all the shimmer, at the end of the quest, it was only a fool’s gold.
Don’t label me please because I go beyond your narrow minded definitions
I love just as deeply as you do
I bleed the very colour you do
So I will NOT be labelled.
Don’t label me please because I have just as much rights as you do
I should not be conformed to a box you try to force me in because of your insecurities
I hurt just as much as you do, with a beating heart that can be transplanted in you should you need me one day…
So I will NOT be labelled.
Don’t label me please, because of all the names you call me, I am first and foremost human…
I am ME
Sometimes I get lost…
In my own thoughts…
In my fears…
In my dreams…
In my happiness…
I sometimes take a step forward and then realize I am at the same place tomorrow-
Because my body moved, but not my mind
I’ve come to realize my mind has a lot of unresolved issues…
Until then, I’ll forever be…lost
Waking up to today and seeing pieces of yesterday
Trying to ignore as much as I can with hopes that tomorrow will be better
But tomorrow will be today because I keep thinking of yesterday
So watch me ice myself up and let go of what was so that I can focus my energy on what it should be!
…………………………..learning to let go