Loving you blind

To love you is to carry you with me everyday, not seeing you but still feeling a connection between us…yearning to be next to you because that is where home is

To love you is to sacrifice my happiness for yours, because when you are happy so am I, either way I am smiling

To love you is to drown myself in tears trying to explain how I feel but I just can’t seem to get the right words out…or make any sense at all

To love you is to close my eyes and allow my heart to wander carelessly in the dark because I have no limits, no boudaries and intentions to stop

To love you is to love you blind…Am I making any sense yet?

The bottom line…

Sometimes the mind gets cloudy, images are a blur and memories linger

It’s usually a down time, a moment when the place is dark and the mood calls for thinking outloud

In these moments the past surfaces, fears strengthen and volunerability is heightened

The true test comes when you are attacked while your down because in this moment decisions are unclear, moods swing and thoughts sway

Can you really love in a dark moment?

I say to you…that even when the thoughts sway and volunerability heightens and when wrong seems right in the darkest nights…even then I CHOOSE YOU

 

For Gerald

Ode to a breaking heart

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It’s the sort of power that clips a bird’s wing and removes the air from their feathers ending their feeling of freedom

The sort of power that washes away memories and pain when your heart is breaking

The sort of power that compels and leaves you vulnerable

The sort of power that determines when you smile and decides just how long you cry

It’s the power of love

And sometimes the most dangerous thing is when the person with this power has no clue that they have it…

Go on and cry now…

Some time

Sometimes…thinking

Sometimes-

I want to fight until the end

Break the rules and change the order

Take the risks and let them see differently.

Sometimes…

The fight is frustrating-

Makes you want to find a dark hole and bury your challenges,

Run-as far as you can dream.

Sometimes…is just that-

It never last forever, let it last for some time and then keep moving.

Missing treasure

It’s a familiar feeling what you do to me,

I have felt this before-

Many times,

The lump in my throat, tears gathering behind my eyes

while I lie to the world and fake my smiles.

It’s almost a routine to me now.

After all the shimmer, at the end of the quest, it was only a fool’s gold.

treasure-chest

 

Love Goes Beyond Titles (LGBT)

Don’t label me please because I go beyond your narrow minded definitions

I love just as deeply as you do

I bleed the very colour you do

So I will NOT be labelled.

Don’t label me please because I have just as much rights as you do

I should not be conformed to a box you try to force me in because of your insecurities

I hurt just as much as you do, with a beating heart that can be transplanted in you should you need me one day…

So I will NOT be labelled.

Don’t label me please, because of all the names you call me, I am first and foremost human…

I am ME

MindMaze

Sometimes I get lost…

In my own thoughts…

In my fears…

In my dreams…

In my happiness…

I sometimes take a step forward and then realize I am at the same place tomorrow-

Because my body moved, but not my mind

I’ve come to realize my mind has a lot of unresolved issues…

Until then, I’ll forever be…lost

let it go

Waking up to today and seeing pieces of yesterday

Trying to ignore as much as I can with hopes that tomorrow will be better

But tomorrow will be today because I keep thinking of yesterday

So watch me ice myself up and let go of what was so that I can focus my energy on what it should be!

…………………………..learning to let go