To love you is to carry you with me everyday, not seeing you but still feeling a connection between us…yearning to be next to you because that is where home is
To love you is to sacrifice my happiness for yours, because when you are happy so am I, either way I am smiling
To love you is to drown myself in tears trying to explain how I feel but I just can’t seem to get the right words out…or make any sense at all
To love you is to close my eyes and allow my heart to wander carelessly in the dark because I have no limits, no boudaries and intentions to stop
To love you is to love you blind…Am I making any sense yet?
Sometimes the mind gets cloudy, images are a blur and memories linger
It’s usually a down time, a moment when the place is dark and the mood calls for thinking outloud
In these moments the past surfaces, fears strengthen and volunerability is heightened
The true test comes when you are attacked while your down because in this moment decisions are unclear, moods swing and thoughts sway
Can you really love in a dark moment?
I say to you…that even when the thoughts sway and volunerability heightens and when wrong seems right in the darkest nights…even then I CHOOSE YOU
It’s the sort of power that clips a bird’s wing and removes the air from their feathers ending their feeling of freedom
The sort of power that washes away memories and pain when your heart is breaking
The sort of power that compels and leaves you vulnerable
The sort of power that determines when you smile and decides just how long you cry
It’s the power of love
And sometimes the most dangerous thing is when the person with this power has no clue that they have it…
Go on and cry now…
When it seems like my sky has fallen and my world is pitch black
You somehow become the one thing that always brings me back
When I start running in circles and nothing makes sense
All it takes is a few minutes standing in your presence
Sometimes my dreams drift a little further away and the race seems longer
But then I’m reminded that anything is possible once we’re together
In the midst of it all, you are north …So I’ll follow the sun
Sometimes I wonder if you wonder about me
or am I drifting in the back of your mind like the other useless thoughts?
Am I easily forgotten or have I stained a place next to your priorities?
But then again, I have answered my own questions…
I mean if you wondered about me, would I be here wondering if you wonder about me?
Waiting on my turn…to really smile again
So many doors shut in my face, some slightly opened and others just send me peeping through a tiny hole
When will it be my time to walk through and lose myself in bliss…
Her heart has been her biggest diary
Such emotions she feels no one will understand
She is complicated to many and crazy to the ones who tries to define her
But that is what people do when they can’t understand and she understands that
They know her name but not her heart and that is how it ought to be because such emotions no one will understand
So it is best she keeps her secret
keeps her heart….
After all, people never quite understood how to treat hearts
They somehow end up breaking it every time…and she knows this feeling all too well.
Drifting with the ripples
Fading towards to the sun
Drowning in thoughts
Swimming with the dolphins and the SHARKS
Lost at sea…
searching for an anchor…
Don’t label me please because I go beyond your narrow minded definitions
I love just as deeply as you do
I bleed the very colour you do
So I will NOT be labelled.
Don’t label me please because I have just as much rights as you do
I should not be conformed to a box you try to force me in because of your insecurities
I hurt just as much as you do, with a beating heart that can be transplanted in you should you need me one day…
So I will NOT be labelled.
Don’t label me please, because of all the names you call me, I am first and foremost human…
I am ME
It’s not a one foot in, one foot out thing
I’m all in
The good times, we sure have some, but the bad ones too
Lord knows how many times I’ve wanted to slap, shout and run out on you
But reality is, it lasts for just some minutes, because I look at you and I see more than one reason to be happy
Something about you fills up the room even when it is empty
You make rainy times feel like a cloudy day and my whole heart crumbles if you are not happy
But I am all in, no holding back of emotions of jealousy or anger or silent treatments
I’ll toss my heart in with no regrets, doubts or back up plan
I am loving you with all of me, in me, about me, me
Because you are a part of me now, I run on your energy