Little piece of nothing

Sometimes there is nothing to hold on to but we get so scared that we create fantasies and imagine what we want to see ….

So that…that way we can live in our excuses as to why we are still there …

Hanging on desperately to nothing

 

– Crystal

 

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You are not AlOnE

If life is a story then mental challenge is a page

Illness knows no mercy nor does it prefer an age

Not even gender too

 

Trying to bury your emotions in a plate of food

Writing your task list then forgetting what to do

Always telling yourself that you don’t belong

And every waking day it’s the same old song

‘I’m gonna be good today – no you’re not! Today I’m gonna be a….oh darn I forgot!

 

You don’t wanna be called special because you link that to a disability

Keeping it a secret because you are afraid of the community

Because some idiot, who’s ignorant might call you crazy….

But I say… the world could use a little crazy

 

Special is not disabled…it’s being unique,

You have a purpose on this land but you’re too negative to see it

Drop self-hate! Unveil self-appreciation

Love yourself and begin to teach your nation

There is so much we can do if we just begin to accept our reality

Stop exiling the victim and begin to help your family

Because the truth is, we are all a little crazy

Some of us just haven’t been diagnosed

Today, for her, but tomorrow, who knows?

 

Empower! Educate! Accept! Embrace!

The world is everyone’s home

And I don’t care what your diagnosis is I just know you are not alone

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

 

 

-Crystal

In support of World Mental Health Day – October 10, 2017

 

 

Movin’with the punches

Maybe we will make it until tomorrow

At this point I am willing to start with at least that

Even though you are not really good for me…you still seem like a pretty good bad idea

The bottom line…

Sometimes the mind gets cloudy, images are a blur and memories linger

It’s usually a down time, a moment when the place is dark and the mood calls for thinking outloud

In these moments the past surfaces, fears strengthen and volunerability is heightened

The true test comes when you are attacked while your down because in this moment decisions are unclear, moods swing and thoughts sway

Can you really love in a dark moment?

I say to you…that even when the thoughts sway and volunerability heightens and when wrong seems right in the darkest nights…even then I CHOOSE YOU

 

For Gerald

Fondling fingers

Why do you tease me with all this candy but tell me not to touch it?

Does this sick joke, get you off somehow?

Fondling with my fingers trying to fight the urge of holding it, just once

In reality I want to have my way with the cookie jar, turning it inside out and emptying its contents

I am going mad somehow from wanting to bite a little more than can be chewed

But somehow I am still desiring to swallow

Looking from across the room at something I cannot have, and all the while you tease me, I sit here fondling my fingers